Chaotic Dreams

I don't mean the popular song based on Portal, either.

In case you're wondering, this past year has seen me deal with..

-A major injury in both arms.

-Said injury not only causing me incredible amounts of pain but affecting my balance, focus, and concentration as well.

-Getting little to next to nothing i'd like to get done..done...and worse..mostly due to doctor's orders. (It never ceases to amaze me. Oh, yes, we can work you to the bone..hurt the other arm after we've done a job to the first...but you should watch drawing or writing. We'd hate to have your injury get worse."  .........Let's hear it for the marvels of human stupidity in relation to common sense and injuries.)

-Finance issues going up and down and up and down. Not fun, but dealable. :p

Ideas currently on hold, but out there: MMORPG, Windia system revival, Windia book..future store with artwork,t-shirt..etc sales.

I hate having to depend on other people. I really do. The reason is..if other's screw up, that's the akward blame and flame game. Not to mention the drama. However, if its just me..there's nothing to it but that I messed up..and I just fix it and move on. Its never that easy when dealing with other folks. I mean..how many folks "volunteered" to help with Windia?

...how many actually did?

Not very many. The same ones that have either disappeared, bugged me about getting it done..griped that it wasn't as l33t as they liked it..whatever. "Okay..then do this." Few months later...nothing. I don't understand folks sometimes, but again...whatever. Its been to the point where i've considered just shutting the whole thing down a number of times..usually periods of intense depression. I'm paying money to keep this site up..and if its not doing anything...meh.

However, i'm pretty sure that will be the case once my not-so-nice three year old injury is finally taken care of. Well, we'll see. I wonder if anyone actually reads these things anymore? If not, then I guess it still isn't so bad. Private thoughts where no one cares to read. *shrugs* Well...yet again...

...whatever. I'll post another update sometime in the future.